“Your best thinking got you here.”
Why yes it did. I cannot rely upon my own will; I will get drunk if I do. Individuals get drunk, not groups. I cant we can. That is the truth. I tried for my first year thinking my way into recovery. That based on self-knowledge and a few meetings a month I could stay sober. I did stay sober, but boy was I miserable. And when my boyfriend of a higher power dumped me, I was very close to a drink.
Self-knowledge will not keep me sober & happy. I got sober to be happy & healthy, not to continue to wake up wanting to die.
So when I hear speakers analyze there drinking, or there sobriety, thinking they figured out some deep intellectual reason why they drank, I just laugh & say a prayer for them. It doesn’t matter if your parents beat you, or if you had a great childhood. Why spend time focusing on something you have no control over? All I know is I cannot take a drink in safety. That’s it.
In other news…
I am not much of an AA gossip. I’m here to save my ass. However I find this interesting. If you are from DC, or know about the Midtown group I suggest you check out this myspace page. I don’t have much of an opinion on it since I have never attended the group, but people I know & highly respect who have been there agree much with the opinions expressed on the mysapce page. Check it out.
The fall of the midtown group
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
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4 comments:
I'm glad you stopped by my blog...because it brought me over to yours....thanks for the reminder about self-knowledge...I've long since given up on trying to figure out the "why" of it all. Enjoy you day!!
yeah no problem! thank you for checking mine out.
What a powerful quote about analyzing the reasons for drinking. Thanks for that. I quoted you today on my blog and I hope that is acceptable.
You are all over this! When I was leaving the recovery home in July 2005, a spiritual giant told me "this is one disease that you cannot Think yourself out of."
My dad is an active alcoholic, however it he were not, I beleive I still would be what I am -- an obsessed person with self. However if anything my father shows me my truth, what will happen to me if I pick up that forst drink, that first sip.
Great post, so much truth here. Gratz!
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